I haven’t done a WBW post in about 2 years. And since I want to do some more research/thinking on other topics, you’re getting something directly from the heart. 🙂
Growing up, Southern Mom and one of my aunts used to call me Glamour Girl. Despite the fact I wore lip gloss (“my lip gloss be popping”), played with Barbie dolls, and HATED to get dirty, I told them they were wrong; I was a tomboy… (Yes, you can laugh.) I think I wanted to go away from this because I viewed being a Glamour Girl as negative. Even though the sisters were having fun at the expense of an 8 year old, I wasn’t having it.
Despite having a father that is about 6’3″ (now do you see why I want a tall dude???) and a mother that is 5’7″, I stopped growing at 5’4″, due my having scoliosis. And I was always a little taller and heavier than my female classmates. I was a jolly green giant until about 7th grade when everyone else started to catch up with me. At this age, even with my participation in basketball and cheerleading, I began to embrace being a glamour girl. I was a ham for the camera (still am) and loved dressing up (still do). My hopes of being a model were dashed when I realized I wasn’t going to grow anymore. I can’t remember if I ever told Southern Mom this, but she knew that was a dream; maybe that’s an example of a mother knowing her child. I did participate in the pageant at my high school for two years and in the pageant hosted by my mom’s sorority, not necessarily because I thought I was going to win, but because I thought it would be fun. And I had no problem being put on display.
While some girls would be miserable if they didn’t win because this was there end all and be all, my mother instilled in me that not only was I pretty but I was also intelligent, nice, friendly, and had a number of other things going for myself. I was more than just a pretty face. Some girls, that’s all they know, which is unfortunate. And this isn’t to say that I didn’t have some insecurities. We all do, and we would be lying if we said we didn’t. I always wanted longer hair (still do) and wondered if the girl next to me was prettier.
I am happy to say, that even though I still sometimes suffer from insecurities, I’m still a Glamour Girl, even at 31. I embrace it. And I better since I’m getting my own crown and sash in less than a month. And I DO plan on winning my next pageant in August. And even if I don’t, I’ll be ok. Because I’m more than just a pretty face. I’m a friend, a leader, a daughter, a writer, and a volunteer. Also, I’m not just walking across that stage and putting myself on display for me. My hope and prayer is that a woman or girl who sees me knows that she can follow in my footsteps, even if she isn’t 5’10” but is closer to 5’2″ and isn’t a size 4 but is closer to a size 16. I’m also doing it because I think it’ll be fun, I like to dress up and I don’t mind being on display. Until next time, I’m just a Southern girl…in the city!