I was talking to my friend Lola last night and relating how when I was younger I did the things I said I was going to do-I went to the college I said I wanted to attend, I pledged the sorority I dreamed of joining, I graduated with Honors, I became president of the organization I helped bring to my college campus, among other things. And I didn’t have to work that hard to do them…well, not all of them. I’m not saying that to say I’m great, but just stating once I set my mind to do something, I did it. I had clear, concise goals, and I made them happen. Currently, I feel like a piece of driftwood floating aimlessly in the Atlantic. I moved to DC for a specific, career-driven purpose. I even left my company in Florida knowing I was on the manager track to pursue my dream of coming to the nation’s capital. Now that I’m here, it’s taken me a bit longer to realize my dream, but new dreams have been born and opportunities I never fathomed have come into my life. And although things seem great to those on the outside looking in, things are not always what they seem.
Although Lola tried to get me to perk up, it wasn’t happening. I told her I was in a funk, and it should be gone by today. But my little tirade made me think about myself and about others. We only allow people to see what we want them to see. Our co-workers, friends, even some of our family may not know the struggles we go through. And if you’re like me, you don’t want people to worry about you, so you are Sally Sunshine 24/7 in hopes of not alarming anyone and going on about your business. But if we are all honest with ourselves, are we TRULY happy? Are we in our dream job (or doing something we enjoy), living where we want, have our finances in order, and really just happy being who we are and with life’s circumstances? I’m clearly not trying to depress anyone (as one of my cousins said my post yesterday was depressing-I beg to differ), I just want us all to do a little soul-searching.
Feel free to share your thoughts. You don’t have to spill your guts 🙂 or even answer the question, but any and all feedback is welcomed! (And if you see me out this weekend, please don’t ask me if everything’s ok. It is!) Until next time, I’m just a Southern girl…in the city!
Today’s Black History Month fact:
Queen Nefertiti is the 2nd most famous queen out of Egypt. Her likeness has been recreated over the centuries, and she is often referred to as the most beautiful woman in the world. Read more about Queen Nefertiti here.